I wanna write this because I am frustrated. I wanna say I hate this person, yet deep in my heart it says I miss this bitch. Life sometimes says decisions are to be made so that we can move on whatever we've been through. Now, I wanna tell you a story why I broke the tie between me and a bitch named Rhems.
We've been friends for 4 long years since I landed MSU-Marawi. We were in the same college, him in Biology and me in Chemistry. We were also debate partners and that's the reason why we became close. Both of us are from different walks of life but there is still a common denominator that bonds us on why we became friends til I broke the tie. Recently, when I was hired in Convergys December 2009, I've been eager and so excited to see him since he was the one who settled in Cebu last year's May. Things changed and I really noticed that. Promises were kept that he will see me on his RD's but definitely, promises were made to be broken. Til now, we never meet. Then here comes a time when I decided that I had to give up our friendship because I felt he doesn't need me anymore as one of his friends.
I gave up. I was very honest to him that it's time to say goodbye since I was hurt and frustrated. Nobody knows how I really needed a friend that time. No one has any idea how it was very hard for me to live a single and lonely life here in Cebu. I am aware that my decision was very abrupt, stupid, shallow and bad since I ended up a friendship that should be cherished for years. We made that in a step by step process and there was already a foundation in it. There were memories that are wonderful to be shared to people who need inspiration for their dreams to come true. No other story can be compared on how we made it in MSU even if he was the only one who got the diploma, me left behind almost shattered and dead.
Dude, if you only know, I miss you and I still value you as part of my very precious past. But I'm so sorry, I'm already big. Life has to move on with great decisions and basically, I am firmed I can live now without you as a friend.
