I've been telling a lot of things about my school and one of those describes it as like hogwarts. You know the school where Harry Potter went to, MSU is almost like that. Nevermind that it has a similar train like station where different cultures meet. Nevermind that it dwells near the big large lake that has full of mystery that's been hidden for years. Nevermind that the people are different from what used to be normal where women wear hoods, though not all of them, and men are covered with robes to prevent themselves from being soaked in the light daily rain. I really miss my school. I can't wait to go back this November 2011. But wait, there's more. Aside from considering it as a school, the students are very intelligent and smart. Almost everyone has a talent, skill or both like wizards and witches. The only difference is, you can't find magic like spell casting, transfiguration and so forth. The real magic that happens in the campus lies in our hearts and how we interpret it. It's the same old school but it is the most unique among the rest.
Wednesday, July 6, 2011
Friday, May 13, 2011
LIFE IS LIKE A JUMP
Life is like a jump. You need to make all your efforts to reach on top, yet you still need to go down for it's like a cycle. A cycle of going up and then you have to go down from where you belong (concept of gravity). Going to the top of your destination has lots of thrills, different expectations, smiles and unexpected happiness. Our trip last May 13 will show you why we had so much fun despite of yesterday's urban legend status: Friday the 13th.
It was not really planned at all. We wanted to go to Busay because we wanted to bond with my team mates who became our office close friends in the past 6 months. The main reason was we were already distributed to other teams because our team leader (supervisor) was transferred to a different account (department or line of business) under the same company. In short, we won't be working with the same team anymore having different breaks and all that stuff. We can still bond but not that much unlike before. After all the tears, sadness, and pressure from our daily office responsibilities, it seems that we also deserve to have a break. That's why we indirectly planned to have a team outing to be held in Busay's famous Doce Pares. In a group of 11 including our TL, only 5 were present. HAHA. Me, Empress, Razel, Abbeygayle and Juliet did all our efforts to make this event successful. Thank God, we're not alone because 3 non office people also came to join with us. Akiko (Razel's former Japanese student), Sonny (Empress' special someone) and Jed (an old friend of mine way back in college).
We met at 1 in the afternoon, and it was expected that some of us were late. We arrived at Doce Pares at almost 2:30pm. It was such a nice place. We stayed at the 3rd floor overlooking the city. We enjoyed viewing which was which: the great Waterfront hotels, Shang, Hilton, Crown, famous establishments like SM, and the nearby provinces like Camotes, Leyte and Bohol. It was a cool day though the weather was hot, we still managed to get along with it as long as we have fun! We took advantage of availing the services of wire walking. Goodness, it was only Php 20 per trip. We walked at the hanging bridge armed only with harness and the cable we held on. It was like 50 meters wire walking. Most of us shrieked in awe and in fear. I couldn't describe how Abbey shouted for joy or what, and even Empress reacted differently. Haha. Here are some of our photos.
Not only we had fun with the walk the line, some of us also tried the bungee jumping. I thought it was easy because Jed who did first jumped with an unnoticed hesitation. Aside from that, it was also not that high if you were on the ground (about 3-4 story house I think). Jed was followed by Sonny who bluntly declared it was FEARFUL. There he goes, he still jumped after like 5 minutes of thinking. I, who was tasked to be the 3rd person couldn't disagree more because everybody clamored for my stint. Well, it was a nice climbed where I even posed for some photos. LOL. I got even injured, just minimal scratch in my right elbow because of modeling stints. When I reached the top, it's like OH MY GOD! shit. It was so scary. I didn't jump until the 15minutes wait was over. Thank God I was convinced that it was safe. I jumped and couldn't shout until I dropped. Jeez. I almost peed in my pants. It was like suicide and to think that I cannot describe my emotions. I was scared and at the same time, I totally enjoyed the moment of being dropped and being swayed back and forth. The wonders of Physics, free fall and air resistance. Just check this video so that you can relate.
We took group, double, individual and jumping photos before we went home. The sky was really good. I will post one its best shot in fb. We rested for a moment, then finally we went home and parted ways at JY Square with happy faces. That's all for now. You'll see more of our pictures in facebook. Next trip will be in Kawasan falls this June 3rd. I'm sure those who didn't join yesterday got super jealous and will really make sure that they will be present next getaway. Happy Thoughts all the time! Long live to everyone.
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| Happy faces during Friday the 13th |
We met at 1 in the afternoon, and it was expected that some of us were late. We arrived at Doce Pares at almost 2:30pm. It was such a nice place. We stayed at the 3rd floor overlooking the city. We enjoyed viewing which was which: the great Waterfront hotels, Shang, Hilton, Crown, famous establishments like SM, and the nearby provinces like Camotes, Leyte and Bohol. It was a cool day though the weather was hot, we still managed to get along with it as long as we have fun! We took advantage of availing the services of wire walking. Goodness, it was only Php 20 per trip. We walked at the hanging bridge armed only with harness and the cable we held on. It was like 50 meters wire walking. Most of us shrieked in awe and in fear. I couldn't describe how Abbey shouted for joy or what, and even Empress reacted differently. Haha. Here are some of our photos.
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| Juliet walks the line with awe and glee |
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| Jed poses before the final trip back |
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| You wanna be on top? Lols |
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| Juliet and Abbey in action. |
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| Empress and Sonny: Prenup? |
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| Smart Razel and friendly Akiko: the Philippines and Japan |
We took group, double, individual and jumping photos before we went home. The sky was really good. I will post one its best shot in fb. We rested for a moment, then finally we went home and parted ways at JY Square with happy faces. That's all for now. You'll see more of our pictures in facebook. Next trip will be in Kawasan falls this June 3rd. I'm sure those who didn't join yesterday got super jealous and will really make sure that they will be present next getaway. Happy Thoughts all the time! Long live to everyone.
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
CRAP
I feel bad today because my surveys are not doing good for this month of November. This is very critical for me because having good surveys for the month of November and December will bring me to Sydney, Australia. I wanna go there. I feel I am not lucky enough to get what I wanted.
Here comes these insecurities that I have. Recently, I just knew that my ex classmates passed the chemical engineering board exams. God, i feel envious for You know this is what I really wanted from the very start. I wanted to be a chemical engineer. I feel I am so dumb, pretty undeserving to gain what the world is capable of giving to me. I know I could have made it but then and again, I sucked.
Yes, I sucked and I sucked on. Bitch. One day, I remembered how I was lambasted by an old friend who works now as a seaweed analyst at Kerry's. We were close friends until he insulted me one day that I am insecure because I never got a degree, that I was only jealous because I never had this and that. He must be very stupid to tell me that, without knowing I actually have what he doesn't have PERSONALLY. I know I am not capable of having a good friendship with people but God, you know I tried and I did and I cared for that bitch. I just couldn't accept the fact that he was the one who told me that very insulting, degrading, and deadly truth. I never thought an old dear friend would ever tell me a thing like that. I am hurt until now. I pity myself. Well, it's true but he knows I am the weakest person who cannot accept criticisms like that because of high expectations from people around me.
One factor why I wasn't successful in college is that I studied without full financial support. It was indeed my fault because I was a very ambitious person who dreamed of becoming one of the best. My scholarship fundings were not enough to sustain my needs so I ended up with nothing. I am not sure if I blame mom and dad for being less supportive to me financially because of the fact that they're my parents. I owe a lot to them. But, honestly, a part of me blames them for being such.
im sorry for being nega today.
Here comes these insecurities that I have. Recently, I just knew that my ex classmates passed the chemical engineering board exams. God, i feel envious for You know this is what I really wanted from the very start. I wanted to be a chemical engineer. I feel I am so dumb, pretty undeserving to gain what the world is capable of giving to me. I know I could have made it but then and again, I sucked.
Yes, I sucked and I sucked on. Bitch. One day, I remembered how I was lambasted by an old friend who works now as a seaweed analyst at Kerry's. We were close friends until he insulted me one day that I am insecure because I never got a degree, that I was only jealous because I never had this and that. He must be very stupid to tell me that, without knowing I actually have what he doesn't have PERSONALLY. I know I am not capable of having a good friendship with people but God, you know I tried and I did and I cared for that bitch. I just couldn't accept the fact that he was the one who told me that very insulting, degrading, and deadly truth. I never thought an old dear friend would ever tell me a thing like that. I am hurt until now. I pity myself. Well, it's true but he knows I am the weakest person who cannot accept criticisms like that because of high expectations from people around me.
One factor why I wasn't successful in college is that I studied without full financial support. It was indeed my fault because I was a very ambitious person who dreamed of becoming one of the best. My scholarship fundings were not enough to sustain my needs so I ended up with nothing. I am not sure if I blame mom and dad for being less supportive to me financially because of the fact that they're my parents. I owe a lot to them. But, honestly, a part of me blames them for being such.
im sorry for being nega today.
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
FROM A DISTANCE
This song by the very famous Bette Midler reminds me about faith. That in every faith, there exists hope to explore the endless frontier that brings joy and happiness to an individual like me.
Here in my little crowded room filled with anxiety and empty memories, with windows closed to avoid the entrance of unwanted flying creatures, happy thoughts of becoming someone and being there and to other places tell me to stop, quit my job, book a ticket, and welcome myself back home to put an end to my unfinished business. My home is a place where someone deserving to be a scholar should be in, and somebody who is so innocent and good should not go to and stay. It sits on vague hills beside the mystic lake faced by a majestic sleeping lady dwelling across the unexpected body of blue-black water. And now, I wanna go back home and finish my studies. Can I still do that now that I already have a well-paid job?
Just by peering at the wooden open corner that views the Southeast direction pointing the Northern gates of the land of promise, 160 nautical miles away from where I molded my personality and weird analytical skills, I can still remember the painful past. But even if that was the case, I have to weigh my options in order to decide which path that I need to follow. Contemplating the beauty of any outcome, possible or the impossible one's, I am still insecure. You know what I mean. I don't trust myself anymore. I lose my confidence way back then, those bad memories that pulled me down in the academe and deprived me to continue and pursue graduation. Now that I am already motivated, can I do this without the help and financial support of my parents?
Now that I am half-decided, I only have 6 months to save moolah for this plan and 6 months to enjoy what I haven't done. Sex in the City. Drugs and Injections. I'm only kidding, the hell with drugs. From now on, it will be six months before I re-enter school, go back for good to get a diploma, and debate again for Marawi. I hope I am in the right mind to fix and do what I just thought. False dilemma. If I'll do this, I will miss you for sure especially if you won't go to Singapore anymore.
Here in my little crowded room filled with anxiety and empty memories, with windows closed to avoid the entrance of unwanted flying creatures, happy thoughts of becoming someone and being there and to other places tell me to stop, quit my job, book a ticket, and welcome myself back home to put an end to my unfinished business. My home is a place where someone deserving to be a scholar should be in, and somebody who is so innocent and good should not go to and stay. It sits on vague hills beside the mystic lake faced by a majestic sleeping lady dwelling across the unexpected body of blue-black water. And now, I wanna go back home and finish my studies. Can I still do that now that I already have a well-paid job?
Just by peering at the wooden open corner that views the Southeast direction pointing the Northern gates of the land of promise, 160 nautical miles away from where I molded my personality and weird analytical skills, I can still remember the painful past. But even if that was the case, I have to weigh my options in order to decide which path that I need to follow. Contemplating the beauty of any outcome, possible or the impossible one's, I am still insecure. You know what I mean. I don't trust myself anymore. I lose my confidence way back then, those bad memories that pulled me down in the academe and deprived me to continue and pursue graduation. Now that I am already motivated, can I do this without the help and financial support of my parents?
Now that I am half-decided, I only have 6 months to save moolah for this plan and 6 months to enjoy what I haven't done. Sex in the City. Drugs and Injections. I'm only kidding, the hell with drugs. From now on, it will be six months before I re-enter school, go back for good to get a diploma, and debate again for Marawi. I hope I am in the right mind to fix and do what I just thought. False dilemma. If I'll do this, I will miss you for sure especially if you won't go to Singapore anymore.
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
Why I Broke The Tie
I wanna write this because I am frustrated. I wanna say I hate this person, yet deep in my heart it says I miss this bitch. Life sometimes says decisions are to be made so that we can move on whatever we've been through. Now, I wanna tell you a story why I broke the tie between me and a bitch named Rhems.
We've been friends for 4 long years since I landed MSU-Marawi. We were in the same college, him in Biology and me in Chemistry. We were also debate partners and that's the reason why we became close. Both of us are from different walks of life but there is still a common denominator that bonds us on why we became friends til I broke the tie. Recently, when I was hired in Convergys December 2009, I've been eager and so excited to see him since he was the one who settled in Cebu last year's May. Things changed and I really noticed that. Promises were kept that he will see me on his RD's but definitely, promises were made to be broken. Til now, we never meet. Then here comes a time when I decided that I had to give up our friendship because I felt he doesn't need me anymore as one of his friends.
I gave up. I was very honest to him that it's time to say goodbye since I was hurt and frustrated. Nobody knows how I really needed a friend that time. No one has any idea how it was very hard for me to live a single and lonely life here in Cebu. I am aware that my decision was very abrupt, stupid, shallow and bad since I ended up a friendship that should be cherished for years. We made that in a step by step process and there was already a foundation in it. There were memories that are wonderful to be shared to people who need inspiration for their dreams to come true. No other story can be compared on how we made it in MSU even if he was the only one who got the diploma, me left behind almost shattered and dead.
Dude, if you only know, I miss you and I still value you as part of my very precious past. But I'm so sorry, I'm already big. Life has to move on with great decisions and basically, I am firmed I can live now without you as a friend.
We've been friends for 4 long years since I landed MSU-Marawi. We were in the same college, him in Biology and me in Chemistry. We were also debate partners and that's the reason why we became close. Both of us are from different walks of life but there is still a common denominator that bonds us on why we became friends til I broke the tie. Recently, when I was hired in Convergys December 2009, I've been eager and so excited to see him since he was the one who settled in Cebu last year's May. Things changed and I really noticed that. Promises were kept that he will see me on his RD's but definitely, promises were made to be broken. Til now, we never meet. Then here comes a time when I decided that I had to give up our friendship because I felt he doesn't need me anymore as one of his friends.
I gave up. I was very honest to him that it's time to say goodbye since I was hurt and frustrated. Nobody knows how I really needed a friend that time. No one has any idea how it was very hard for me to live a single and lonely life here in Cebu. I am aware that my decision was very abrupt, stupid, shallow and bad since I ended up a friendship that should be cherished for years. We made that in a step by step process and there was already a foundation in it. There were memories that are wonderful to be shared to people who need inspiration for their dreams to come true. No other story can be compared on how we made it in MSU even if he was the only one who got the diploma, me left behind almost shattered and dead.
Dude, if you only know, I miss you and I still value you as part of my very precious past. But I'm so sorry, I'm already big. Life has to move on with great decisions and basically, I am firmed I can live now without you as a friend.
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
An Open Letter
Dear Robert,
Forgive me but I like you. I just don't know why. It's really hard to feel this way, and I'm guilty of having this. I know it's not right, but I feel that's what makes me happy. Don't you see it? I like you. And I'm afraid I am now ready to love you like what I felt long before.
As days passed since I met you in January, things evolved and my life started to change. I don't know. But I once told my room mate that it's like I'm back in high school whenever you're around. I like everything about you, though not everything, but I know you are already a great package for someone who is looking for a real love. Anything about you is considered special. I checked that long ago before I made a critical judgment on you. You're better than "fine" because you are intelligent and smart. And it's not a doubt that you are handsome, everybody knows you really are. But I just hope you also know, though everybody likes you because of what you are, nothing can compare my deep appreciation for you. I like you, more than how they do.
There are times that I am insecure because I feel I am nothing compared to you. I don't have the capability to be like you, to be like your friends who look good all the time, and I have no idea what's on your mind. I am sure you're not numb. You know I am pathetic. Loser. Whatever. Shit happens for a reason. But this is me. I'm trying even if I can't. I'm still holding on even if there's no warm response from you. But I'm already tired. I am not patient anymore of following your facebook page everyday. I am already bored of waiting your replies. I keep on looking at my cellphone and dream that one day, I receive even one text message from you. But now I am tired, and I just give up. Just now. I'm so sorry.
God made plans for both of us. I know I became deviant to His laws but I tell you, I made arrangements with him that all I want from you is purely friendship and company. I never ask anything beyond that. But maybe the High Heavens know that I am really deviant. And maybe, this is also the reason why my story ended like this. I hope you'll be fine with your plans and goals. I wish you all the best things in life that God has to offer. But just remember Rob, please forgive me if I didn't give myself a chance to say, I LIKE YOU.. I tried. It's just time didn't allow me to say it so.
Forgive me but I like you. I just don't know why. It's really hard to feel this way, and I'm guilty of having this. I know it's not right, but I feel that's what makes me happy. Don't you see it? I like you. And I'm afraid I am now ready to love you like what I felt long before.
As days passed since I met you in January, things evolved and my life started to change. I don't know. But I once told my room mate that it's like I'm back in high school whenever you're around. I like everything about you, though not everything, but I know you are already a great package for someone who is looking for a real love. Anything about you is considered special. I checked that long ago before I made a critical judgment on you. You're better than "fine" because you are intelligent and smart. And it's not a doubt that you are handsome, everybody knows you really are. But I just hope you also know, though everybody likes you because of what you are, nothing can compare my deep appreciation for you. I like you, more than how they do.
There are times that I am insecure because I feel I am nothing compared to you. I don't have the capability to be like you, to be like your friends who look good all the time, and I have no idea what's on your mind. I am sure you're not numb. You know I am pathetic. Loser. Whatever. Shit happens for a reason. But this is me. I'm trying even if I can't. I'm still holding on even if there's no warm response from you. But I'm already tired. I am not patient anymore of following your facebook page everyday. I am already bored of waiting your replies. I keep on looking at my cellphone and dream that one day, I receive even one text message from you. But now I am tired, and I just give up. Just now. I'm so sorry.
God made plans for both of us. I know I became deviant to His laws but I tell you, I made arrangements with him that all I want from you is purely friendship and company. I never ask anything beyond that. But maybe the High Heavens know that I am really deviant. And maybe, this is also the reason why my story ended like this. I hope you'll be fine with your plans and goals. I wish you all the best things in life that God has to offer. But just remember Rob, please forgive me if I didn't give myself a chance to say, I LIKE YOU.. I tried. It's just time didn't allow me to say it so.
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
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